All good things

I hadn't been taking Caltrain lately to get to work. I'd been going to someone's house in the morning & getting a ride to work because it made it possible for he and I to see each other as much as we wanted to.

I was back on public transportation today.

My Peet's barrista said, "Hi Sarah! Haven't seen you in a while! You've been gone or ..?"

My response, "No, I've been here but I've been able to avoid taking public transportation lately.... But that's a fantasy world.... And those don't last."

Traveling, I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
young and restless.
Living this way
I stress less.
I want to pull away when the dream dies.
The pain sets in and I don't cry.
I only feel gravity and I wonder why.
-Nelly Furtado, All Good Things

I'm not sad... have no soul?

We lost 4 celebrities last week. Is it up to 5 now?

So Farrah Faucett died. Long battle with cancer. So tragic and must be so hard on her family. Michael Jackson. Again, his poor family. He was a great artist. A tragic life though, really.
Ed MacMahon (sp?), Willy Mayes.

Ok yes, that's a larger-than-average cluster of celebrities dying that close to each other.

But people die everyday. People who have loved ones, and children, who ARE children, who battle cancer, who drive drunk, who drive sober and get hit....

I'm just as sad for the batch of celebrity deaths as I am for the number of other people who die that I don't know. It's a tragic thing, it's hard on the families, but it's a part of life and just because a person has a star on the walk of fame, doesn't make their death any more important or sad.

I don't usually cry when a stranger dies because then I'd be sad every day.... so don't expect me to be sad for these celebrities.

By closing, we open.

Mom and dad are getting a divorce. I have three words to say about it.
It's. about. time.

They separated when I was 15.... that's 13 years of not following through on a life altering decision. 13 years of remaining wrapped up in something that prevents you from being happy. Cut the cord already, right?

Mom always said she wanted one. Dad just didn't want to pay the lawyer fees. And my mom wouldn't pay twice. Dad said it was financial reasons. Then later he admitted he didn't want his children to come from a broken home. Well you know what Dad - if it ain't broke, BREAK IT.

The color of my energy

He said my amber necklace "matches" me.

I agree.

Brainstorm
take me away from the norm
I got to tell you something
this phenomenon
I had to put it in a song
and it goes like

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally
you ought to know what brings me here
you glide through my head blind to fear
and I know why
whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally

You live too far away
your voice rings like a bell anyway
don't give up your independence
unless it feels so right
nothing good comes easily
sometimes you gotta fight

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally
launched a thousand ships in my heart, so easy
still it's fine from afar, and you know that
whoa, brainstorm take me away from the norm
whoa, I got to tell you something

Next step

I don't have anything awesomely clever to say right now, but I'm just done with coming to my blog and reading the last blurb... so I just needed to write somethin'. So here goes nuthin...

So...
If you know me, you know I have this obsessive tendencies towards certain songs. That I'll listen to it on repeat for hours.
Snow Patrol, Shut your eyes
Snow Patrol, Lifeboats
Amos Lee, Keep it lose keep it tight
Joshua Radin, No Envy No Fear
Amos Lee, Careless
... to name a few.
The song I quoted below was the latest.

It takes me a while with some songs, but eventually I will tire of them. I have reached that point with "Say" by OneRepublic.

I think it's a beautiful song, but there's a part of me that can admit there is a sad quality to it. Maybe you have to hear it.


Anyway, it's a beautiful song. Just a little sad. And I've tired of the... umm... obsession. Next :)