Finding faith

He said that the shape of a woman's body is proof that God exists.

I don't believe in god but I believe in THAT.

The Creation [Musuem]

"A fossil with thorns is proof that it must have been made after the fall from Eden, because Genesis is quite specific about Eden's being un-sharp and blunt, or, you might say, dull and pointless."
-A.A Gill, Vanity Fair

warning: song quote

If the fish swam out of the ocean
and grew legs and they started walking
and the apes climbed down from the trees
and grew tall and they started talking

and the stars fell out of the sky
and my tears rolled into the ocean
now i'm looking for a reason why
you even set my world into motion

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
that it's all just a bunch of matter

'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHuebHTD-lY

And it's all just a bunch of matter

I put this list together for a recent "assignment," we'll call it.... I like the ring it has to it so I'm posting it. Because this is my blog and I can.

Other Fun Facts about Sarah L Doran:

1. Love public speaking. Max crowd so far: 1,500. Bring it on.

2. On the debate team in college but sucked at it

3. Middle child with daddy issues from a loving and supportive dad who picked me as the favorite

4. Been writing forever, have about 30 journals to show for it (i'm 28), been blogging for a little over a year. Wanna see it?: I'm writing, You're Reading

5. Will claim clairvoyance and then prove it.

6. Oh and um, there’s this little story of me jumping off a third story balcony three years ago as an attempt to get in my apartment while drunk and locked out and stranded and alone at midnight and shattering my back, both ankles and life as I had previously known it. And surviving, and walking again and then surviving some more. Snap.

google Horoscopes - so hot right now

Stop thinking long enough to act on what you are feeling instead of what others are telling you.

Set an example by acknowledging that your own personal goals are just as valid as anyone else's and remain true to yourself.

Once you fall into the rabbit hole, you should be able to find your way around your subconscious without any external light.

yes, this is the libra constellation. see that one star? next to that other star?
yeah, right there.

the sarahs

red: get out there! there are actually lots of people who are worth spending time with and getting to know.
be selective!

blonde: i know.
dating is such a buffet.
so many options.

red: just gotta leave enough room for that dessert at the end of the line that you didn't even realize was there.

blonde: ha!

red: that was a damn good analogy. blonde and red. taking on dating.

blonde: what was that other term you invented the other day?

red: recommendating. ha.

open your hand

the leaf fell into your hand
filling the lines you just drew for it

you watched and received
you held and released

you watch it float
into the frame you just hung for it

you looked and you loved
you remember, you leave.

I surrender

and I mean it this time.

and no mom, this is not me :)

It never hit home the way it did last Friday. Your yoga instructors always say "Let go. Let it happen. Listen to your body. Etc etc etc." But Friday she said "Surrender as a way to say 'I accept this challenge.'"
At that moment, my neck went from controlling the placement of my head just to completely letting it go. My head hung forward in complete surrender.

I remember thinking, "woah. i haven't been letting go at all." I'd been thinking "I'll 'let go' in this way because that's normal. Because that's the way other people are probably letting go."
I was still clenching. Grasping. Thinking. Watching. Worrying.
And as always - so in yoga, so in life.
I surrender. I'm humbled. I bow.