My secret

Some people have porn
but i have People

A whole book of the easiest crossword puzzles ever.
(and ok, sometimes even these stump me)

They both said

they both said
they met me for a reason.

i agree.

it goes a little something like this

when the pupil is ready
the teacher will appear.

thank u universe.







march 1 2010: this post now dedicated to this post

I think it's funny when

people argue with each other
about whether or not
i qualify
as a red head.

i have freckles
and red hair in the sun
but brown hair otherwise.

what's funny is
people are adamant one way
or the other.

their hair-color based categorization of me
would have to change
if the other side turned out to be right.

my perspective...

i have freckles
and red hair in the sun
but brown hair otherwise

and i am a red head.

and i win.

He called her his girlfriend

but really it was just because it was easier
than saying
this girl lying next to me
who i really like but can't commit to
is having really severe abdominal pain

A revealing review of the movie UP in 3-D

Up, the movie, takes place in the air. The characters are constantly at risk of falling from heights that would kill them should their foot slip off the porch, or the balloon string finally snap from the weight.

You know that feeling you get when you see someone on TV come really close to falling or actually fall but get saved somehow? I'm talking about the feeling you have BEFORE they get saved....

Well, I've felt that feeling. And not from watching someone falling. From BEING someone falling. And I didn't get saved. Not until maybe 2 hours later anyway.

No, this picture is not me... and it's probably disturbing for you.
I won't argue with you. It is disturbing.
And it's also pretty close to what I must have looked like
to the neighbor who found me.
See January > A story I once told

I've been able to stomach seeing actors, cartoon and otherwise, at risk of such falls before. But before, it's been an isolated scene among otherwise completely unfamiliar situations. The movie Up is 2 hours of one almost-fatal-fall after another.

I saw the movie today but I haven't even been able to think about the movie yet. This heartwarming, love-for-humanity kind of movie usually leaves me feeling happy and satisfied. I want to get there, I really do. I think this post was an attempt to do that. It's not working.

I'm not over it yet... under-statement? Will I ever be able to watch people come close to falling from a fatal height? Maybe never. Maybe that's asking too much.

I don't have a positive-outlook way to end this post.

Someday.

Delicious

I wasn't going to eat dessert tonight except for the fact that
of course I was.

do what you like.
like what you do.

order dessert. eat two pieces.

surrender to the universe.

let it in. let it go.

stay open. say yes. let it happen.
let it go.

no wanting. no waiting. just letting

just letting

Still talking about MJ huh?

Latoya thinks MJ was murdered. That the doctors messed up. That someone was feeding him drugs towards the end to control him. That yes, he had a drug problem. But he recovered from it. Of course he did, Latoya. Maybe I'd try to think that too if this were my brother.

I just think "Well it worked for Anna Nicole."

Some people just have addiction problems and end up dying from them. Heath Ledger's family didn't blame everyone but him. In the media at least... what really, do I know about any of this.

Ugh... I do not miss television. This is Larry King Live airing this gossipy gossip.

I am grateful for the simplicity and focus of my non-celebrity life.